John O - $850/month

To live with I am a normal guy who sometimes watches tv and YouTube, drink soda and water, like things clean and have a roomba with mopping in it, I am lonely. My first wife and I had two amazing kids. Son is in California and Daughter has a small child and married living near by. I was re married to an abusive wife with genuine narcissistic disorder and multi personality disorder and was nice at first and in the end took traveling RN jobs and was never home and ghosted. E traumatizing me half to death then tricked a sale of the home and all my property and ghosted me from the RV in Louisiana and then cut off all financial help since she was the one who made the most. I have full disability with insurance and money per month from the PTSD of the abuse and take psychiatric medications as prescribed by a doctor who I visit every 90 days. I am sensitive,, sweet, want to have fun and a best friend and the same thing every man wants as if that's a shock, but have lost a lot of hope after having to fight a 18 month divorce to keep my RV and motorcycle. My violin is the most cherished possession I have next to a best friend if one exists that's not going to abuse or use or destroy my spirit that loves and loves deep. I am a Christian and love the Lord with all my heart. That does not mean I am always behaving perfects i experienced my share of substance. Abuse in the past and learned what recovery truly is and the difference between religion and spirituality and Grace. I'm not a Bible thumper. I seek to love and care and be real. I don't know how else to describe myself. I have times I'm up late and times I sleep in but I try to stay moving and keep hope even being alone. I had a father n law move in here last month and rip me off from paying rent and brought woman home and finally when he lost his job I had to get him out and now I'm struggling to raise the lot rent for the end of the month all on my own. And I am a man in terms of love and taking care of friends and being a comfort and encouragement but am not the manly man who we knew of as dads in the 80s who were tough and stern and were the leader of the house and Mr macho. I believe in both male and female having equal rights and control with different strengths and weaknesses.